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[fermin25]

Well I have a lot of defects. I am human of course I have to be defected. But in the last few years I was experimenting something weird and with advantages and disadvantages too. It isn´t easy to me explain this. It´s like a virtual world that is in my head and in an insigth point of view it´s like something real but it isn´t. Maybe you are confused and maybe you are thinking that I am crazy but let me explain this in this topic and MAYBE you will found that you are in the same trance like me.

I have discovered that this virtual world is here to me when I am dissapointed with the real world. For example I live with a mad obssesion for the money and when I fall in the reality and see that I am poor I start to imagine that I am rich, I have cars, houses, companies, women and you know a lot of stupid things. They are stupid things. But in some way this make me feel better and help me to don´t fall in depression by the real world. A lot of my friends have the same practice in their lifes. They told me that the main virtual world that they experiment is with women when they can conquer a woman. All my friends are nerds like me so Imagine that. They told me that sometimes they imagine them with a pretty girlfriend in the college, living with them, having sex with them and you know...

This is weird and when we talk about this type of things that are happening to us we are considering seriously that we are crazy or we aren´t normal people.

But I have read a lot of books about auto-suggestion. I think this happen to all the people in one time of their lifes. Maybe the unconscient mind gives us a piece of the things that we want to have or experiment to makes us feel better. That is my theory but who can know. I don´t have fantasies with women but I have a lot of fantasies with money and companies. I don´t know but I can avoid it it´s like a disease. But I have made some observations related with this phenomenon:

1. The pleasure you feel because you think that you have or experiment things that are impossible in the real world makes you feel better and helps you to believe that you can do it in the real world.

2. The effect of the fantasies are stronger listening to the music.

3. More you are experiment these fantasies more difficult they come true in the future.

For example: I have read a lot of e-commerce books in the internet. I have hacked websites to download ebooks without pay because I can´t pay them, only to read the books or watch the videos. I dream with a good business in the internet and make money in an automatic pilot system with the internet and my website. I signed up to knowledgesutra and astahost with the purpose of getting a hosting plan to my websites. I passed entire days imagining me making huges amount of money in the internet. And now two years later of the beginning of this obsession what do I have? Nothing... I lost my time with fantasies and I didn´t anything in the real world. It´s weird and I don´t know if this is a disease or it´s normal. Having these types of fantasies like an obsession is unhealthy.

I am telling you this because I want to know if having fantasies and obsessions are normal to you too. I don´t know maybe I have an psicologist disease or something. Please I wait your comments and please be honest.

Regards.

Edited by fermin25, 19 June 2011 - 08:38 PM.